Ollie and Cally! You can't get them back! Would you lose your brother too?" I am slightly confused in the dream- my brother? Then I am no longer running through a rainy forest but through sunny fields with the sun shining down. I stop as I hear a neigh from behind me. I turn to see a mare lying on the field- her huge belly panting and heaving as the foal comes out of her. But something is wrong. After she gives one last heave and the foal is out- she doesn't move. I recognize her from somewhere and then I look at the little tiny foal that is trying to stand up without anyone to help it. I gasp, as I realize that the dark brown, black eyed tiny filly: is me. Then Rain comes as I try to drink from the lake but fall in instead, and she rescues me. But me and Rain are not what I take a closer look at. I stare at the dead body of my mum- and now I realize it- Taydor's mum. The mare is exactly how Taydor explained his mum. I now know that I have a family member alive and well and with me. A tear runs down my cheek. A tear of happiness and also a tear of sadness that I never knew my mum or dad. Suddenly, a cloud of mist comes upon me and again I am running through the forest. It's raining and I eventually come to a clearing. But I can't see any where to go. Unexpectedly, my feet aren't on ground any longer and I fall. Fall into a lost cavern of my hope. Fall as if the days and nights of the past months were my last bit of life. Fall into the darkness that will engulf me forever.

 After the dream- I was sure that me and Taydor were brother and sister. It made sense. I loved him like a sister would love a brother and no way else. But thinking about love made me more sad and depressed over Ollie. I loved him, I hated him, I didn't know how to feel or act around him. It took me quite a while but I finally managed to muster the courage to tell Taydor about my dream. And what a surprise I got when I did- he'd had the same dream as me, the exact same one. It was then that we were both sure that we were brother and sister. We smiled at each other and I knew that I had a home: with Taydor and the Dunez.

 Taydor announced that I was his sister to the whole herd about a week later and they took it really well. All except Ollie. He looked unhappy and angry for most of the time after that. But I had no idea why until about two days later when a shock announcement came from Sofie. She stood up and moved to the middle of the herd. In a loud voice she told us all that she was expecting. It shocked me enough to think that she was pregnant but then to learn that the father was Ollie... Ollie. OLLIE! I couldn't believe it. I hated him in that second. I hated him so much. I surveyed the herd till my gaze found and rested on him. To my surprise he looked at me. Right in the eye. I gave him a look of disgust then galloped off away from the excited herd all congratulating Sofie and Ollie. I kept on going. I didn't turn back- just kept going. I heard another horse approaching me from the back but I didn't want to talk to anyone so I went faster. "Showgirl!" It was Taydor. I slowed to let him catch up. "That's the second time you've done that to me. What's up?" he asked me, breathing deeply. I hadn't realized how hard I'd been crying until I then started to try to talk to him and explain. Instantly he looked worried and he nuzzled me to comfort me. I let him, it felt right since he was my older brother. "It's... it's... it's everything really... I... don't know what... to do..." I explained imbetween sobs. Taydor hushed me and it helped to know he was there. I was able to breath properly soon and we just stood there.

 I went into depression after that. Everything had seemed to go so wrong so quickly after Cally died. Taydor helped me to try and find a will to live again. I don't think he realized that he was that will, he kept me going. I saw less of Ollie and Sofie, they were probably so excited waiting for the foal that they just spoke to each other about what to do when it was born. And I was on my own. No one except for Taydor to talk to. I'd let Ollie in, I'd loved him and he left me heartbroken. Ofcourse I'd be upset and depressed.

 Ollie surprised me one day by actually coming and talking to me. I didn't think he'd have had the nerve. But apparently he did. I sensed him approach so I felt like I had to show him I was over him- even though I wasn't- so I turned to face him. I saw him and instantly all the emotions came back that I'd been trying to push down for days. I didn't sense it coming but I suddenly lashed out at him. I kicked him and bucked him. He didn't fight back and when I knocked him to the floor, he stayed put- not moving- not trying to stand. Seeing him as vunerable as he was made me want to break down again and take him back. I stopped kicking but stayed still, breathing deeply. Ollie looked up at me and I saw in his eyes such emotion and longing that I had to catch my breath. "Celie- listen to me." he said tenderly. "Please." as he whispered that last word, I knew that I loved him and that I could never hate him ever. I never had hated him, I had just missed him. "What?" I still spoke with harshness. He struggled to get up. When he did he looked into my eyes like the evening I'd fallen in love with him. "Me and Sofie. We're not anything. She made a mistake- the foal isn't mine. When she woke me up that morning I was with you and told me that she was expecting my foal, I didn't say anything because I didn't want to hurt her. I thought I might as well be a good father than leave her pregnant. How bad would that have looked?" he explained. It would have been bad, I understood. "Celie... I love you. I've always loved you, more than anyone ever could. I want to start a life with you- if you want that?" as he said those words, I was the happiest I'd ever been. I smiled for the first time in days and I knew no one would bring me down from the high heavens where I was at that moment. "Yes! I do!"

 Me and Ollie were happy as can be. Taydor was happy for me and was even happier to here that he was going to have a brother-in-law. Two years later, I gave birth to a beautiful filly. We called her Livie. As time went on I slowly forgot about the cimmeron and Spirit. They would realize that I'd left the herd. The dreams stopped almost straight after the day Ollie said he loved me. It dawned on me that the dreams had been saying that I couldn't run from the cimmeron forever but then I wasn't running from them. Instead of running from the cimmeron, I was running towards the Dunez and I had found my home.