Oblivion

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Childhood

In the shadow of a big chamber was siting two lions. One of them was adult brown - cream pelted lioness with green, beautyful eyes. Next to her was playing a brown - golden little lioness - her daughter.   

The day was hot and beautyfull and a cub quickly get tired because of playing in sun in high temperature.  She lied on the ground next to her mother. But the cub was playfully and curious and soon she start to asking her mother about a lot of things and she patiently was telling her what she wanted.

Suddenly the little lioness asked 

- Mum! Tell me about your childhood! Because I know you too was a cub like me. - she asked. Her mother  expression was strange. If a lioness would be more adult she would know that her mother didn't want to talk about this.

-   Hazina, I don't know did I should.. It's a long story anyway and.. - said a adult lioness.

- Please, please! - said Hazina. She had to long  ask her mother for her story.

- Allright. - answered resignated lioness. - This is my story.

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My name is Oblivion. You know what it means. My mother gave me this name because I never was something worth anything to her and in the day that I left she forget about me.Your name is Hazina, becase you're my biggest treasure. And that's story of my childhood.

When I first time opened my eyes I see only shadow and darkness. I feel cold. I was liing in a cold chamber of my mother - Zira. Her name means  hate. When I opened my eyes I saw only shadows cause when lions have only few days they can't see anything like  older cubs. I was hungry. I need warm, I need mother. I  haven't feel safety. I need someone. I heard something. The paces, well in this time I didn't know that. My mother come to me. She touch me by her cold nose.She lied next to me and I find the source of milk. In this moment I couldn't feel better. But  it was just a few minutes. Then my mother pushed me. She did what she had to - born and feed me, but nothing more. I wasn't wanted.

Since day of my birth my mother comes to me only few times to feed me by her milk. She wasn't sleeping with me or spending time with me like we do it.Because I love you my daughter. And Zira didn't. When I have only a few days I didn't know why.

And that's how passed my first days. I was growing up. Now I start to see better, I was learning how to walk, and then how to run. Now for my mother I was more problematic. She now have to spend more time with me. I have so much questions but she told me only the most important things. And now I was understanding more. At first I thought that my mother is very busy and that's why she didn't spend time with me. Later I understand that she just don't love me and don't care for me.

I was with every day much better at moving but my mother didn't looking of me. She was sleeping or she was gone when I was walking out of chamber and the nearest places around her. Our chamber was between a big jungle and a county near from here called Pidelands.

While I was growing I found vout that my mther milk didn't taste like always, it was too little to me. I want  meat.

My mother showed me how to hunt. Once a day I was coming with her on a hunt but only into a jungle or to the closest savanna. I was learning but I was still to little to hunt antilope and I haven't enough experience, courage and strong will  to kill a young little zebra.   So my mother come to me at the morning to learn me and hunt something for me and at the evening to check  did she still have a problem, did she still have me. Cause yes, I was only a problem fo her. Meaby if I would born in other time I would be her precious daughter.   

While my mother was out i was sleeping or walking to the jungle because my mother told me to never come to Pridelands.

Ofcourse I haven't any friends.  So if  I hadn't any lion friends I was trying to have a friends from another species but ewerybody was frighten of me. 

But I finally had two friends. First was a female hyena called Nguvu - strong. She at first too was frightened but then we become great friends. We was meeting in the jungle cause she can't go on Pridelands and it would be dangerous to me to come on place where she was living. And it was a elephant graveyard. Horrible place. She too didn't like it. When I wasn't with Nguvu and I was alone I was meeting with Moto - flame. We spending  our time togethe at The Last Savanna - we callled The Last Savanna the savanna which me and my mother was hunting.From Moto I heard about a pride liing there, leading by  lion called Scar. Moto never meet my mother with me, because them meaby he would recognized her as a lioness from pride..

But I lost friends of my childhood. At first Zira found out that I have a friend from pridelands and she didn't let me meet with Moto anymore. In the days of my childhood I meet with Moto only one more time. And I escaped with tears. I know he was angry at me. Soon I lost too Ngavu. Her parents saw me and her, and their taken her. He couldn't anymore left graveyard. I met her years ago. We recognized each other but she didn't speak a word just walk away. She must suffer because of me. It was a hard time for me. I was young and I was sure that ewerybody who I meet will suffer because of me. I was sure of it even when I was older. And so in these days i was sure that my mother suffer because of me and that's why she make me suffer too.

Some days later a some hyena find my chamber, they recognized "the lioness which wanted to be friend of hyena". I for a long aftenoon became a object of their jokes. when they have enough they start to hit me. I was close to death.But as always at the evening come my mother and chased them off, killing one or two. Yes, she save my life.

The rest of my childhood was very sad and lonely.  A behaviour of my mother didn't change a thing. I was still only a problem for her. She thought that I should be independent . I've reached the age of ten months. I still wasn't good at hunting. I was nearly adult but I need her, and her love. But she never give me that one. But too I had enough of it. I still was sure that I make her suffer. When we were together we didn't talk a lot.

But came a day that change ewerything. A one of last days spend with my mother in chamber area.

In this morning mother didn't come to me. I though that mayby  somethng happen or mayby she  finally left me. It was a day that I first time hunted something by myself. and it was a zebra, adult zebra. I was proud of myself. I decide to find mother. I seweral times saw that she after visit in chamber returns to pridelands. And I went look there for her. I take with me hunted zebra. It was hard to going with a weight of dead animal but I wanted to show her that I made it.

But I find her. And she wasn't alone. She was with a lion and they were acting very ... friendly. I was sure it's her mate. And then I thought - it's my father. It was strange - if it was my father why  she never show me him,why he never  visit me? And why I have a ban to going on teritory of pride?

 I wanted to run to them but she saw me first and.. she was angry and shocked.Lion too looked at me, and... I knew he is not my father. He looked at me as  unknown lioness. Mother ran to me and we walked to another place to talk face to face.

- Mother, what's going on? - I asked.

- You silly cub it's time to tell you ewerything - she said. Andthen she told me why I have a ban. She told me a part of her story. And she showed me she don't love me, and never did.

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- I wasn't born here but I spend at pridelands my childhood. When I was a cub I met him. He was a son of king but he never supossed to be a king cause he have older brother Mufasa. I loved him. We spend a lot of time together. But then one day I went on elephant graveyard. I didn't knew yet there lives hyenas. They attacked me. I escape and lose the right way.

I couldn't came back because the hyenas would see that and avenge. I killed a one of them. I missed Scar but I gone. I make long way and find a  pride where my mother spend her first years. They didn't like me because of my character. Exept one lion - Chafu. He hasn't he same character but he wasn't a ideal lion and surely not a ideal mate. I didn't liked him as much as Scar but we became a couple. Some months later I found out I'm pregnant. I didn't want to stay with him. I despise Chafu! And.. and.. I  always have to spend time with his cub? Never! I decided try to back to the one I love - to Scar. We became again couple. Few months ago he became a king. And now I'm pregnant again but with HIS babies. I've never loved your father and I've never loved you. I didn't want Scar to know I have another child, not wanted child,child of another lion. I left you in  chamber where I've give a birth to you. And I thought: if you survive or not - I didn't care but when I came to you seweral times and you obdurately was there I feed you, then learn how to live. I didn't want anyone to know about you. Only one lioness knows I was expecting you but she don't know did you survived birth. You always was just a problem for me. I love Scar and I gonna have his cub, a prince of pridelands! - she said with no emotions to me. I've cried untili I have any tears.

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- I hope so now you will left me and go live your own miserable and mangy life. And I don't want you to  introduce anyone anywhere as  the oldest daughter of Zira, as a daughter of Zira and Chafu! - she said and she turned away. She hated me and I hated her from this time. She wanted to be sure that I won't join Scar's pride and won't tell anybody from pride who I am. I sweared. My life with mother if it ever really was true came to an end. I left her. I didn't stayed at chamber of my birth or in jungle . I went as far from my mother as it is possible. And that's how come to end my childhood.

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Oblivion, daughter of Zira finished first part of her story. Between Oblivion and Hazina become silence. Grand-daughter of Zira was shocked and Oblivion was sad. Silence continued for a few minutes because Hazina didn't know what to say. But then she moved to her mother  and huged her.

- Mayby your mum didn't love you. She must be awful. But I love you and you love me  too.

They both smilled. Oblivion nodded. And then after more few minutes Hazina asked her mother about interesting her question: what was later?...

TO BE CONTINUED

THE END OF PART 1