Have you ever disposed from someones life? I have and very often, and to freak you out more than now...killing is something I rather enjoy.

Seeing those I hate on the verge of their deaths - begging for mercy, that I won't give, and their bodies full of scarlet red blood...beautiful red blood. 

-So I'm sounding like an emotionless bastard eh.

Even though, it's just hard to believe but...

 I do have emotions, I just don't show them much, other than anger and hate...I guess. I do feel love, no wait....I once felt love from someone, but thats a faint memory - To tell about her brings me back memories. Her name is Navy, that enigmatic female that would always be by my side, so sweet and caring...making me feel things I don't anymore.

 Her beautiful bluish gray fur, and those icy green eyes, and not to mention her sweet scent. 

I want to kill her!- She makes me sick to my stomach, she's so strong and brilliant, and yet so vulnerable under my grip. I want her, but I want to make her suffer as well. Why? So far I have lived a life full of suffering and humiliation, and thats the reason...I want her to suffer too, and feel what I felt that night my life was ruined.

Days after such events, I had a hard time, and she was always next to me...but she couldn't understand me - I mean, she wasn't there- Those moments I lost John, and then she was just there by my side. Caring for my own good. Or just acting like she cared.

I'll do myself a favor if I killed her, blood would appear on her beautiful face. Blood as pretty as her. It would be a memorable death- She would be crying and screaming, and I'll be enjoying every moment by her side. I would be covered with blood- her blood. I would make sure such moment would take hours. Quick deaths are just for unworthy unlucky wolves.

Even though...I don't want to kill her yet. I want that moment to be perfect, and it won't be unless I kill some other future victim of mine- the one who ruined my life of course. 

Braken...That wolf is so tough, but even a tough boulder can break, and Braken will shatter one day as well, in a near future when I kill him. Every stone has a crack, a crack a crack I'll locate and exploit, it will expand and break into many pieces.I'm already thinking on one. That ugly spawn of his- his son, the brat I saw that night. Or that white she-wolf who calls herself as his mate. I may kill them, will he care? I don't know, that wolf is as heartless as I.

 Braken will die...no doubt. Still, there's something he taught me after that night, live on-  Stand out, terrorize and kill first, if not...someone will do it instead.

Tell me Braken? You actally thought I was going to die that night? Did you have an empty head to believe so? I laugh...I'm strong I survived, and I'm alive. Even if what I become is barely "living", but that aside, I'm still planning my revenge, and believe me Braken...It will be sweet. Like you blood, and believe me that night when I bit yu on the chin, I tasted it.

If I had to wait, and find another easier victim. Of course, that stupid lame blind pup I held hostage right now, Blain. He's so stupid, still when I had him ready for his death, he asked me for it. The brat wanted to die, he was asking me a favor, I wasn't feeling merciful that day, so I let him live...as my chewtoy.

But then again, Braken and Blain should be left as another topic. 

So then, what about that pretty little blue gray colored female? My pretty blue gray colored female- How long will it take for me to finally end her? I'm eager to do so. 

She doesn't know how do I feel, and still she acts as if she does. She knows nothing...Nothing I tell you, Nothing!!! 

Because I want her - her beautiful slender body, her powerful mind, her sweet scent. It won't be possible, she can't like a sickminded hybrid like me.Besides I hrt her that day. 

Navy, if by any chance you could hear my thoughts, I want to tell that you can lie -to yourself- all you wish, but unlike you, I can't. It's too hard for me because I love you, but I want to kill you.

I can't have you... because you are so sweet, so beautiful, nice, and caring. 

I can't have you because you make me think twice before killing someone.

You block my mind and thus my plans. 

That makes you my hardest challenge, and one I haven't cleared.

Sometimes I dream about you.

 You simply drive me mad. 

I get to see your face on every wolf, she-wolf, and pup I kill- YOU make me feel remorse.

And I want to get rid of you for that!

Author's note 

(Or more likely, it should be called "What Kepz has to say about the disturbing POV of her disturbing character")

 Dingo's mind being disturbing...I really don't know what to say about this. I was in the mood to writte an emotional text some days ago, but instead it became more like a "psycho analisis" from an assasins sick mind. Dingo is supposed to love Navy, but I decided to give his relationship a masochistic feel, to make it more interesting.I especially enjoyed how Dingo keeps his love feelings for hsi girl, but with the sadistic psychopath enviored mixed too.

Dingo is an antagonist from CatLuvsZuko's "Never Series", but the character belongs to me.