I wish I could have changed what had happened

I wish I could have went back in time and kept that dreadful day from coming..I wish I could changed a lot of this, but I couldn't

I wish I could feel your hugs again, hear your joy in your voice was you said "I love you."

I wish I could feel the silent squeezes you put on my hand to say the same messages, but..I know I could never feel those ever again

I wish I could look at you..and feel happy, saying.."You are mine. I am with you."

But no more can I look at you the same way

Your name and and form bring tears to my eyes, that I was told never to bring

I stare at you with blank eyes

I stare at you with eyes that hold sorrow and anger

Anger and sorrow..at your invisible form that brings pain to my heart

The heart which you mended a year ago

The heart that was heal with you kindness and love

Sewed back with tenderness and understanding

Sewed back with care, that will never be there again

It was sewed and mended by you

No more has it healed

The threads of "Love" torn from the stitches of our relationship

My heart, no longer mended

No longer stitched with love

Tenderness

Kindness

Understanding

It's only a gaping wound of Anger

and Sorrow

and Pain

The wound that was once called my Heart will seal up once more

It has been sealed before, not allowing anyone the key

I gave you the key, I let you unlock my heart to my feelings

No, the key is lost again

You sealed my heart again

Your choices sealed it again

Unknown that it will open again

Love Hurts....