“I hope you’re happy” said Stunner with emotion in her
voice.
I couldn’t respond. How could I when I have betrayed her
trust. I couldn’t even look at her, grief and agony spilled inside me. I was so
selfish to try ad take away what belonged to her. I only blamed myself a little
bit. Stunner’s life was too perfect: a loving mother, owners that cared for her
well, the best mate that anyone could have, 5 beautiful children and the
ability to create a family. What did I have? The only thing that I had what she
didn’t was a brother and a loving father. That was it. Never would I have my
own children. Never would a mate find interest in a disabled female. And never
would I recover from such pain. How can I be happy.
I shook my head and responded the best I could: honestly.
“No… how can I be. I never…it was just…I’m sorry”
The last two words were very faint and hard to hear. I
doubted that she actually heard them. I had enough, I walked away without
looking back. And contemplated what I had done to be so ashamed of.
Envy was always another form of poison. Green, greedy, evil
emotion that covets another. My desire for summer had been so strong, I was
blind to who would be affected by it. It was only about what I wanted. By the
time I realized it was too late. It was selfish of me to take advantage of
Stunner’s generous offer, but what could I do when I was disabled of everything
that I wanted. If I had been supportive of Stunner and her new family, would
things have turned out better…for the both of us? But I’ll never know, I had
damaged the alliance between us to a level beyond repair. Never would Stunner
trust me again or show the same trust.
More then anything, I just wanted to be gone. My reputation
was ruined here in Nomeand no male would find interest in a slut, especially a broke one. I arrived at
my house but same the huge sign on our lawn looking different. I entered
through the doggie door and saw the house completely empty. The furniture was
gone and felt hollow. What had happened. The door opened and my owner came in.
“Oh there you are Sadie. I thought you’d come back here.
C’mon, we’re going away for a while. All the way to White
Mountain, won’t that be exciting.”
We’re moving? A flicker of dread went through me. What about
my friends and family? But it occurred to me: which friends? I had none worth
calling friends and my only family was Jade and my mother. My father was hardly
around with all those races and my mother would be fine. Jade led the snow team
to White Mountain all the time, I would still
get to see him. It seemed like the solution, to leave and get a new fresh
start. Stunner and Summer would like that anyway. I followed my owner to the
truck and poked my head out of the window. We weren’t leaving just yet, she had
to grab a few things.
“Hey Sadie” called out Jade who approached the vehicle.
“Hi”
“How have you been lately” he was always concerned about me,
ever since the spat with my cousin
“I’m okay I guess. I’ll be even better when I outta here”
“What do you mean? You’re leaving?”
“Yeah, we’re moving. But its okay, we’re moving to White Mountain, you deliver mail there all the time, so I
can still see you”
“True” he murmured his head nodding “I hope things turn out
better for you there.”
“I hope so too” I said in a small voice.
Jade raised his head and nuzzled his sister, and I returned
it. I would miss him. The car gave a roar of life and began to move.
“Bye Sadie” called out Jade
“Goodbye”
The town blurred past as the car sped up. I saw several of
the dogs that I had grown up with, and had no problem leaving them behind. I then
saw Summer and Stunner and my heart froze. They looked at me, with a cold
expression. I could only shift my gaze, but a new sorrow filled in. They soon left my vision as the car moved on and I
raised my head, looking out at our destination and once again hope filled me. Hope
for a new beginning and a better life.
~~ 1 year later…~~
“C’mon Sadie get in the truck”
I tried to wriggle loose but my owner held the collar
firmly. I did NOT want to go back to Nome.
I had made some new friends and was able to act like myself, but I hadn’t
gotten a mate yet. For some strange reason my owner felt like going back to
visit. But I had nothing there for me. Surely my owner could make the trip
without me. But against my will I was forced into the car. I pulled a paw over
my face and prepared myself for the worst.
Hours later, the car stopped, a sign that we have arrived. I
tried to stay and hide in the car, but my own wouldn’t allow it. I took sight
of my hometown and concluded that much hasn’t changed. Several of the dogs
greeted my return. I did receive a few looks of disgust but I was still quite
happy to see old faces. It has been too long.
But of course I saw even more new faces and I could figure
out who they were. I saw Dong and gaped at how he had grown. He reminded me of
his father and it seemed like only yesterday when I last saw him as a puppy.
“Sadie, is that you”
I turned and saw two more strangers, but after a few seconds
I realized that they weren’t strangers at all.
“Winter? Aderyn? Oh my goodness, I can’t be!”
But it was. Aderyn has grown so much and was very beautiful,
her floppy ears reminding me how she was named. But I instantly remembered that
I had tried to get her to turn against her parents and was filled with dread.
Would she hate me? But she didn’t appear like she did. She seemed happy to see
me. My eyes flickered to Winter and I was taken aback as too how handsome he
was. He was a combination of Nikki and Mahogany. There was a hint of fluff in
his hurt but it had lessened since he was a pup. His brown eyes were full of
kindness, but something else that she couldn’t put her paw on.
“I haven’t seen you since forever. It’s nice to see you
again”
“It’s wonderful to see you too, I can’t get over how much
you’ve grown”
“Well, I have to go now. Bye” she walked off
Winter was still there looking at me with that look. He
finally spoke.
“It is great to see you again Sadie. I sort have missed you”
This surprised me a little. I didn’t think anyone would miss
me when I left. He continued speaking.
“If you want, I could show you around town, it’s been awhile
since you’ve been here.”
I took the offer and was grateful for it. I noticed how big
he was and still wondered who the small puppy became so huge. He had some
chunkyness of his father, but the tall slender form of his mother. As he showed
me around I noticed how funny he was and decided that maybe my visit wouldn’t
be so bad after all. I was almost disappointed to be leaving tonight
“Sadie! You’re back!”
“Jade!”
My brother dashed over and I collided with him in a frenzy
of nuzzles and licking. For the past three moths he hasn’t visited and I was
more than happy to see him again.
“I’m glad to see you. Where’s mom, I want to see her too”
Jade frowned and looked sad a bit.
“You don’t know already?” He asked
“What?”
“Mum died two months ago. She was giving birth to her second
litter, and only two pups made it.”
“What!”
My mother couldn’t be dead. It all seemed so unreal, but
Jade wouldn’t lie. She was really gone.
“I’m sorry” he said, tragedy edging his voice.
He nuzzled me and I
only buried my face into his fur. I never even got the chance to say goodbye. I
was then aware that Winter was still here, looking uncomfortable. I was
embarrassed of having to see me in such
a state.
"Sorry” I muttered “ I-
“It’s okay. It must be hard for you.” He said gently “ Maybe
you could come over my place, and have a small treat”
Say what? The offer sounded a little strange and even he
looked a bit embarrassed about it, but I couldn’t help but noticed how hopeful
he sounded. I was about to refuse, but my stomach then gave a small twist, I
had avoided breakfast. And who knows, maybe it will take my mind off of the sad
news that I have just received. I reluctantly nodded.
“Sure. That would be nice. I’ll catch you later Jade” she
added to her brother. Jade smiled and rasped his tongue over my cheek.
We finally arrived at his place, which wasn’t so bad. Then
I suddenly remembered, with a sinking
feeling, that Summer also lived here. My throat tightened and I shot Winter an
angry look, but Winter didn’t notice. I felt like I had no choice but to go
inside. I prayed urgently that Summer might not be home. I couldn’t bear to
face him after what I had done, even though it has been a year.
The doggie door led into a clean kitchen. Next to it led a
door way to what might be a living room. Would I be allowed to?
“Its okay, my folks are out of town. You can go into the
living room; I have to find where they hid the dog treats”
I nodded and went inside, with a knot tied in my stomach. It
was looking okay, and the coast looked clear, until I heard thudding of paw steps, and my nightmare appeared: Summer.
Summer looked confused then his brow furrowed. No doubt he wasn’t happy to see
me, and I didn’t blame him.
“Sadie, what are you doing here” he asked, his voice hard.
“Your brother invited me over”
"Oh, did he”
There was an awkward silence and I wished that Winter would
hurry and find those snacks. I wanted die right now.
“Look, Summer. I’m …I’m really sorry” I finally whispered “
I was so selfish and I never expect you to forgive me. I loved you too much,
but I was even more jealous of how Stunner gets it all That’s all I really have
to say.”
Summer looked as if he didn’t know how he would respond. He finally said something.
He sighed "It must've been hard for you, seeing your friend have everything that you can't have. I forgive you. But understand that I won't treat you as welcoming as before."
I couldn't believe it. He actually forgave me! I was so overcome I just wanted to give him a hug, but thought the better of it. he wouldn't like to too much. A shadow then appeared in the
doorway. Winter stood there, looking somewhat uncertain. Oh no, had he hard the
whole conversation. His head hung slightly, and he muttered.
“The treats are in the kitchen”
I quickly gathered myself. My plan was to just eat a couple,
and leave.
“Thanks, I just go eat them in there”
Sure enough, in the kitchen was an opened bag with bacon
smelling biscuits, but my appetite was long gone though. My ears then perked
up, I could hear the two brothers talking. I couldn’t help but edge closer to
hear what they were saying, most likely discussing about me.
“…why on Earth did you bring her here” hissed Summer
“Sorry, she was pretty sad, so I wanted to cheer her up. I
thought you were out with Stunner so-“
“But you know how she is with guys, she could be playing with you”
“She didn’t start anything, it was my idea. Why are you
getting so angry”
“I’m more worried for you. I know you, you have a crush on
her. But-“
“But what? Do you think that you are the only one who can
fall in love and have a mate”
“Of course not! But I wish your choice of girls would be
better”
“So what if she can’t have puppies. Half of those rumors are
lies anyway. Mind your own business, you already have your family.”
I have heard enough. I hastily left, not caring how rude it
was. Winter had a crush on me?! It all felt so fast, but I couldn’t let it
happen, I didn’t feel the same way. But I was surprised. Winter didn’t think of
me as a whore? He didn’t even seem to mind that I was disabled. So maybe there
was nice guy out there after all. But not Winter. I felt determined to tell
Winter that he should stop trying to impress me, before it got out of hand.
“Hey Sadie!”
Winter was running to catch up to me.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t of have invited you over.”
“Its okay, you were trying to be nice”
“Maybe I can make it up to you somehow, how about-“
“Look, Winter.” I took and deep breath and continued “You
are a great guy and all, and I overheard you and Summer talking. I’m sorry,
but…I don’t feel the same way about you”
Winter looked taken a back, then hurt. I knew it was harsh
and all and I really did felt bad about doing it. But I could not lead him on
to a lie, especially after what I have done to his brother.
“Oh…I see. Well, see ya then”
“Winter, I’m really sorry but-“
Winter was already turning to leave, his tail limp and head
hung. For a split second, I found myself feeling regret. As sweet as he was,
there was no denying the fact that it would never work out. He was younger than
me, and I lived to far away. I let out a sigh, things were going so wrong. I
wanted to go back to White Mountain. I finally
stood up and turned to my owner.
“There you are Sadie. C’mon, we’re going home”
I wasn’t so sure what home meant anymore. I knew I would
hate coming back. As we drove off once more I found myself thinking about what
would’ve of had happened if I held feelings for Winter. But I then realized,
that maybe I already did.
To Be continued...
Author's Note:
yes!!! I can finally do this the right way. It took me only a day, I'm amazed. I tried my hardest to get all the details right. Sadie and Winter's fanfic will come soon enough.
Stunner (c) CatWhoHas14Tails
Summer, Dong, Adeyrn (c) Beauty_Jenna
Jade, Melody (c) Skotta
Sadie, Winter (c) CatLuvsZuko