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It's been a long run people, life comes at you like a 14-wheeler and knocks you on your *** when you least expect it. Just a random comment I thought might catch your attention.

My name's Dreaming Wolf, and I've been a member of Balto Source since I was 14 or 15, I can't remember which. But that's not the point of this topic, and while the actual subject I'm about to embark on my not receive any comments or attention whatsoever, I feel it's an important part of my personal legacy and a wonderful closure to my time on Balto Source.... which, incidentally, literally changed my entire life forever.


It started in 2005. I'd been on Balto Source for a while, it had become my afternoon obsession after working hours at a time with my father in our kayak rental shop. We took morning and evening tours for the tourists visiting the small island we called home (Chincoteague, VA). I was expected out of bed at 5 or 6 AM, loading 50-80 pound kayaks onto our small pickup truck to be transported to the docks. I had my first-aid license and CPR certificate, not to mention I was an authorized tidal water tour guide. This was a way of life.

One evening after our largest tour of the year (the Pony Swim), I sat in my room replying to posts on BS chatting it up with Dusty, Silverwolf and a few other friends on the forum. It was then I noticed a small lump on the side of my neck. This puzzled me, but my father said it was probably just a muscle strain and if it didn't go away within a few days we'd go to the doctor.
I'm not going to waste my breath with details. It didn't go away, and at 15 years of age I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease Lymphoma, a cancer of the lymph system. They removed the lump (tumor) and I began adult-dosed chemo treatments immediately.

Throughout this time, my life was a living hell. I was sick all the while, and Balto Source was my only saving grace. I was unable to manage much time here though, with treatments and money issues now on the rise. The major problems started when I made a critical life decision.

After my third month of chemo, the cancer was claimed gone. To make a long story short, this was nothing shy of a tall tale, as it appeared once again a couple of months later. Rather than vouching for a second go at high-dose chemo, which had before nearly killed me, I decided to try a more alternative form of therapy. Yes, alternative medicine.

This was met with far less enthusiasm by the doctors, and it wasn't long before a medical neglect charge was filed. Look up "Abraham Cherrix" and you'll see that I'm all over the the place; I fought tooth and nail for the rights to choose my own medical treatments. And won.

Throughout the entire situation, my friends stood by me. Deni kept me laughing, and Redwolf (Vahtko) became my best friend. Which brings me to the next, and most important part of this message.

Because of Balto Source, I discovered my religion was not what I thought it was. I found my inner self, the person I always wanted to be. I discovered that there are always people out there who will be my friends, even in the hardest of times. But most importantly of all, by complete and utter chance, I discovered the love of my life (Redwolf) here on Balto Source. It was then that I accepted my sexuality, and now 6 years later I look back on everything I can't help but wonder what I would have done without it all.

This is my introduction; this is my farewell; this is my thank-you to Steet, Dusty, Deni, and Valko; this is my tribute to love, discovery, friendships and survival. This is my story..... thanks for listening

wow... thats amazing you posting your story like that, I'm just in complete shock and awe by what you've just said. Had a look at your story and coverage on the net by a few sites and I can't even began to imagine how hard the ordeal must have been on you and still is.

Just gotta say that your a top bloke mate! Would of loved to have spoken to you sometime as you seem like a real genuine guy, really nice one for posting what you did, was a rare and amazing read.

Oh wow, I remember reading your topic about that. I'm glad to hear it all worked out, I lost an internet connection back then and by the time I came back the topic was buried and I guess was over.

It's pretty good to see an old, familiar face again. C:

And it's very nice to see you also Dreaming Wolf,only my name now is Celtic Aleu.

I remember youuu, and I always will. I have to say you're my VERY VERY FIRST friend I met on this site. The first person who I spoke my thoughts out, and shared most of the things. Jokes, art, music and so on. I still cherish each moment we spoke. I will never forget when you accepted to help me make a music video for Steet on 2005's Christmas, haha!

I am very glad that your life has turned into better. Also very delighted that nightmare is over. I wish you all the happiness, because you're a good person and you deserve it! Nothing less.

HEY, what am I talking.....we need to catch up on MSN!!!!



Awwr, likewise my friend. Likewise. Always will if it's necessary. That's my job, muhahah.

I read the whole story and even though I am new here... I too have made a few life long friends. AS is the best thing to happen to me so far. I have meet so many wonderful people on here. And I too think I have meet the love of my life... And I don't plan on leaving here anytime soon. There are so many more people to meet out there. And who knows maybe one of them will live by me for a change

Oh wow, so many old faces! Heh, I guess this is the closest we've come to a Balto Source get-together (which would still be incredible, lol).



Wow, it's been such a long time since I've seen hide or tail of you! Thanks for your support; it really means a whole lot to me. I'm glad that BS had such an impact on you as well. Steet would be happy to hear about this, I hope he drops by ^^




No time like the present, eh? Thankfully, money issues are about all the problems I face right now. My life couldn't be more full of happiness. I've found the most perfect person in the world, my cancer is going into regression, and I'm pleased with it.




I agree, so many people are here that I thought had given up on BS! It's great to see everyone!




Hah, you always were one to change your name a lot xD. I think you were my first friend here on Balto Source, Ms. Aleu, not to mention the first one to reply to my introduction topic





*Glomps* You're always around, throughout my time on and off BS I've seen you at Furaffinity, DeviantArt, MSN, Yahoo Messenger, VCL and believe it or not.... Fchan (yes, people love your art that much). You know me, I'm almost always on my chat programs, I'm sure I'll talk to you real soon. Thanks, Deni




You know, for some reason I can't shake the feeling that we've met before somehow or that I've seen your name around. In either case, welcome to Balto Source! Enjoy everything about this forum.... the people, the fun, everything. There's something about it, something unreal. This is a very unique corner of the web we call internet.



You guys are just incredible, I love you all

That's very touching. I'm glad I could help a little, even if indirectly...
Sometimes it's difficult for me to realize that there are real people out there "behind" the site, so such testimonies are important to me, especially when they're positive.

You never knew me, but I'm so glad to hear how BS helped you. Most people just complain about this place.

I might as well say BS has had an impact on me as well. I've met so many great people over the time I've been here. I've had many great memory's here, and I hope to have more in the future. I don't know what my life would be like without BS. Even though there are those times where I just can't stand the place, I just keep going like an energizer bunny. I don't dwell on whatever it's that might be bothering me. I just look a ahead to the future that awaits me.

This story is extremely touching. All the time I've been here on the Sources (Indeed, mostly Balto Source back then when there were only two sites) I've always, say... grew up with this site almost? I learned so many things and even life skills from so many caring members here, and I'll never regret finding Balto Source when I was 11. I am now 14 and never intend to leave this site. Everyone here on Animation Source seems like my family. I honestly don't know what I would do without everyone here. Animation Source and its members are such a big impact in my life, and I hope to stay here for many, many more years to come.

Dreamy, we also met here and became bro's and still are to this day, you went threw alot and everytime out of no where you come and always seemed to brighten the day even when things were looking dark for you, you always had a smile and I never forgot all our talks, our crazyness everything, its thanks to this site and the awesome kind hearted wolferz on this site that made more then one hell of a story to tell and live threw^^ GOOOOOOO DREAMYS LEGACY!!!!!^^

By the way when you were going threw chemo I saw you and your dad on the news it was epic and even then you were smiling^^