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I just feel so Alone... Like no one cares about what I say or do. I'm convinced no one would care if I jumped off my apartment building right now. Ever since my Aunt died I've felt like just going to pieces. Here I had thought people would care. Now I'm convinced no one in this whole wide frickin world cares...

So why am I even posting? If no one cares why would they read this crap? Why read about a lonely girl who has no one but herself that she can confide in? Not even her friends here or In Real Life care what she has to say or respects her feelings? Why would anyone care about an ugly mis-shapen freak?

No I don't think I'm too hard on myself. Because that's what I am...(EDIT: But yes, I do know I am too hard on myself a lot of the time)

No one's gonna read this I know it.


UPDATE**:

Things are looking dim for me as of late. No one will even leave me be. I tried to help someoen today(2-6)and she goes on and on and on about how I wasn't talking to her! We get into a fight and in the end I feel stupid. I'm already upset as is, and I'm not a very confident girl as is. I really wish people would leave me alone...Here, anyway, you all who are helping are awesome ^^;

And I get seated with someone who hates my guts. He, on the first day told me to not talk to him, and do not even LOOK. Oh my goodness I hate people here. Well, that's mostly it.

I read this thread!

Yes,why?

Poll runs till Sat Apr 24, 2010 11:30 am

Trust me, people care. I've been where you are, sort of. My dad is kinda stand-offish, especially since the divorce. Before it he was always trying to discourage everything I believed in, whether it mattered or not. Now, even when I visit him, it's like we're not even on the same planet. My big brother, who is old enough to be a dad himself by now, acts like a two-year-old even though he has a great mind and a perfectly fit body. All he ever does is put me down and call me, for want of a better way to put it, a trash heap. My mom is too busy just keeping us fed to have enough time to keep him in line, so the job falls to me when I'm not even 20. If it weren't for church I'd be right there next to you on the edge of the rof, if you get my meaning.
Take my advice: find a good church and go there. It can- and it will- work wonders if you let it.

don't worry...i have felt like my life is tearing apart also...my girlfriend broke up with me and now my friends are accusing and are being mean to me.....

come on don´t be so rude. she just wanted to let her feelings out and the fact nobody here can help him...I don´t think thats true.

hey cheer up! you are not alone.

I kinda agree with Outlaw, if you feel this bad get a counsellor or something and sort your head out. I feel lonely almost all the time but that's no reason to complain, almost my entire has died now, I only have my mum, brothe and Grandma left alive so I know how bad it sucks losing someone close to you and how bad you feel but cheer up and chat, that's what I alwyas did, went on the SB and chatted, not whined or complained that I was unhappy, just hid that part and chatted, had a bit of fun and after a few mins talking to meh pals I forgot I was even sad or lonely at all. Try it.

Chat? I can't...and as for being rude well I do have to say it kinda was. Think how problematic this is...I can't confide in my Aunts. My brother sister father and his fianceee are too far. My mother doesn't even know I exist and we live in the same city. Think about that. If I cannot confide in the people around me, how will I do so with a person that I know is there just to give me rude comebacks to the problems I have? Every conselour I've been to has been very spiteful. And it's not like I'm social here or anywhere. I can never do the right thing to start a conversation. You ever look into my history on the SB you will see that almost all of my posts say 'Hey' for a starting point. Everyone says 'Hi' and then goes back to what their doin and there's no possible way for me to get in. And what is it about getting over it that people like telling me it so darn much? I get it from my only friend IRL constantly I want to say 'shut up' to her so bad my head will explode. But come on you too? No. And WHY Outlaw did you decide to post if you think others are wasting their time with it? You're just as bad as them in my eyes. And negative reinforcement is NOT what I need right now. And like wearedoomed said in my postion ANYONE would feel bad yes or no? You say no then you are sadly mistaken.

Do me a favor and think about that.

But I'm very glad most here relate and at least are wanting to say something encouraging. And Thanks doomed...some of you so far have been very helpful to me. But a couple people are basically just PUNCHING me in the face. I get hit at school...I don't NEED IT HERE thank you very much. And if you weren't trying to insult me? Too bad cause you did.

You get punched around at school. I know what that's like. From elementary school all the way to the end of middle school, I was the number one target. No exaggeration. By the end of kindergarten I was the fastest kid in my grade, maybe the whole school, because I spent every recess running for my life. I also had insane agility, and I knew the hiding spots on the playground as well as- if not better than- my own house. If I had trained like that all the way up till now, I could have stunt-doubled in Spider-man. No joke.

Like I said before, try finding a good church. God helped me through my dad problems, and turned them- and my school troubles- into some of the best things that ever happened to me. There is no limit to what He can and will do for you if you let Him.

i wont post all of my history here about my problems because this topic is about you.i think you need to find yourself in the world.i felt lost and lonely many a time cos with a large familyyou dont get noticed often.i like to punch cushions ect to get my anger out and paint to get my sadness out ,you need to find a way of easing your emotions..i was bulied for 3 years about being myself and my looks and have never had a bf and only a few close friends...shout HEY YOU I AM WHAT I AMMMMMMM (like the song)

hope this helps

hope i havent offended you in any way (dont know is i have or? )