I never knew pain could feel this bad

WhiteWolf--(WSP) · **Posted:** Mon Jun 26, 2006 2:44 pm

OMG!!! Im speachless :cry:

* hugs her* I feel so bad. I understand why ur not around but.... having no one exept your brother who understood you is beyond my reach. I hope you will feel much better soon :wink:

UKthewhitewolf · **Posted:** Mon Jun 26, 2006 3:01 pm

OMG, that's awfull, *gives Ecliptica a hug*, I feel so sorry for you, I know how it feels to lose someone close to you and my father was abusive too but me, my mum and my bro managed to escape him but it's 100 times worse for you, you'll be in my prayers. The pain of losing your brother will get better with time (lots of it) but I don't know how long it will take for the rest, all I can say is that I hope it works out OK and that you'll be in my prayers.

JazzyWolf · **Posted:** Mon Jun 26, 2006 3:06 pm

Wow. I'm so sorry for you, that's so horrible. You must be increadably strong person to be able to withstand what you've been through. I hope you can get away from all that soon. You'll be in my prayers.

Tibbeh · **Posted:** Mon Jun 26, 2006 3:12 pm

I don't think this'll help much, but one of my friends taught me this saying. SSFEP. (pronounced as letters) It means Simple Solutions For Every Problem. You'll be in all my prayers.

cybunnys_rock · **Joined:** Sat Apr 29, 2006 6:13 am **Posts:** 26

Ecliptica wrote:

Pain fills me, pain is powefull, but I never knew it could as painfull like what happend 3 nights ago.

What happend last well since I was six its not fun to be abused, and im not talking a spank or a slap im talking about being punched, kicked, smashed into broken glass, being a thing that my father loved to hurt loved to watch bleed loved to see his friends laugh at fights me and him had and everyone of them ended up with me being coverd with wounds and blood and in so much pain.

He would come home and if I said something he didn't like he would punch me kick me, he has stabed me a few times, he has stabed my dog a few times, he has done so much to me since I was six and is still doing it but more and more painfull.

He snaped my whrists a few times in the past, he has broken my arm manytimes mainly by hitting me with a metal bat, if you think thats bad well that is not even close to his worst, he is responcible for my sisters suicide and for me going to hell and back, more then once.

But here is what happend 3 nights ago, well me and my brother Kodi are exreamly close, he was the onlyone I could call family, my mom hates me and does not love me, same with my dad and all of my family members that live near me, but Kodi and I were almost like each other in many ways, me and him were always together, but 3 nights ago him and his friends were crossing the road and a drunk driver almost hit his friend but he pushed her out of the way just in time but he got hit and died.

So if I don't seem happy or not around, that is why and well planing a funral which is not a happy time.

How heroic!! Risking his life for a friend!

Ecliptica · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 4:19 pm

The running away idea is going to get me in more pain because last time I tryed that he and 10 of his friends came after me looking for me and well they cought me because they thretended my mom and my family by killiing them so I came out of hiding because the way I get hurt the most is if someone I care about gets hurt, that hurts me more then anything, others come before me and alway will.

The police is out of the question aswell, he beat me to it.

The onlything I can do is wait 2 more years then move out, because then i'll be 18 and can say bye to hell, but im sure im able to get through it, iv been going through this since I was 6 so im sure I can last 2 more years, but it will be much harder now because Kodi is gone and me and him were alway with each other and me and him think the exact same way, we both have everything in commen, so its much harder now because he was the onlyone I can talk to.

I also promissed him that I would never hurt myself or kill myself, I will never do that so don't worrie I will never hurt myself or kill myself, because life is worth living.

I was also alway there for Kodi, if our dad wanted to beat him I would piss off my dad on perpus so he didn't get the beating only I did, he kept asking why and all I said is because your my little brother and I will do anything for you, he just smiled.

My sister my have killed herself because of my dad but im not going to, im not going to give in, im going to fight back untill I am 18.

Thank you all for everything, it means so much and you all helped me more then you know, thanks^^

UKthewhitewolf · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 4:33 pm

Ecliptica wrote:

The running away idea is going to get me in more pain because last time I tryed that he and 10 of his friends came after me looking for me and well they cought me because they thretended my mom and my family by killiing them so I came out of hiding because the way I get hurt the most is if someone I care about gets hurt, that hurts me more then anything, others come before me and alway will.

The police is out of the question aswell, he beat me to it.

The onlything I can do is wait 2 more years then move out, because then i'll be 18 and can say bye to hell, but im sure im able to get through it, iv been going through this since I was 6 so im sure I can last 2 more years, but it will be much harder now because Kodi is gone and me and him were alway with each other and me and him think the exact same way, we both have everything in commen, so its much harder now because he was the onlyone I can talk to.

I also promissed him that I would never hurt myself or kill myself, I will never do that so don't worrie I will never hurt myself or kill myself, because life is worth living.

I was also alway there for Kodi, if our dad wanted to beat him I would piss off my dad on perpus so he didn't get the beating only I did, he kept asking why and all I said is because your my little brother and I will do anything for you, he just smiled.

My sister my have killed herself because of my dad but im not going to, im not going to give in, im going to fight back untill I am 18.

Thank you all for everything, it means so much and you all helped me more then you know, thanks^^

Well I'm glad we've all helped and it's good that you're not gonna give in, everyone here will always be there for ya, keep strong buddy.

Kodifan · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 4:55 pm

That was the MOST HORRIBLE parent's I've even heard about!!!! :evil:

I feel really sorry for you.. :cry:

NightFang · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 5:03 pm

I'm soooo sorry for you. :cry:

Ecliptica · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 5:07 pm

Your right, it will make life with out my dad, thats why im going to move, and good idea, I will keep my mind open for more ways and answewrs^^

Also sorry I was gone for a long time, I was called to torronto for something about a few magizines and Steve needed to talk with me about some important aswell, I may be gone on and off doing things for steve so if im not here to much you will know why.

Thanks again it means so much^^

Twilight_Zone · **Posted:** Fri Jun 30, 2006 9:42 pm

[quote="Togo"]If I understood your post correctly, what are you waiting to run away from your house?[/quote]

Running away is not as easy as it sounds I have tried befor(not because i was mad but because I was scared of my parents) you have to worrie about food,mony,water,shelter.

Ecliptica · **Posted:** Sat Jul 01, 2006 1:44 am

wolfhound wrote:

Togo wrote:

If I understood your post correctly, what are you waiting to run away from your house?

Running away is not as easy as it sounds I have tried befor(not because i was mad but because I was scared of my parents) you have to worrie about food,mony,water,shelter.

Running away is not easy and also its ilegel so if I do that id be breaking the law and well I don't want to do that and I don't want to get punished for that, I get punished enough as it is.

The only thing I can do for now is wait untill I can do something else, but allI know is if he hurts my dog like last time im going to snap and we are more then likely going to have a physical fight like last time, but my mom ca get pissed al she wants for the house being trashed, I don't care, im going to fight back, even though last time me and him fought it left me with a broken arm and cuts all of, and glass stuck in me and the house trashed, I will go and fight him if nessesery but I won't if I don't need to.

Thank you all for everything *gives a big wolf hug to everyone*

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