scent, and burst out a different door.  I skid to a stop and I can't believe what I see.

           Abyss is standing at the edge of a green canyon behind the building along with the other evil wolf.  I don't know who he is, but he has Jay.  Jay is laying on the ground coughing.  I start to really worry about him. Then I look to my right.  Abyss is holding Drew.  Drew is covered in blood and claw marks.  He is a totally different wolf.  Just like Jay.  He sees me and mouths to me I love you.

           I glare at Abyss.  "Let them go."  I spit out the words in a growl.  I feel my blood rushing through my veigns.  I'm ready to kill anyone in my way.  Abyss has the two closest to me in his grasp.  If anything happens to them, I don't know what i'll do.  The thought going through my head is i'd probably go berserk.

           "Tell you what," he says in an evil voice.  "You either give youself to me and they go free this very second.  Or, you can say no, and we let them both go, and there's no way you can save both of them."

           I start to growl deep in my throat.   "I hate you."

           "Is that a no?" he asks.

           I tense up and walk forward.  "I hate you."

           "Fine then," he says irritated.  "Choose."  Then he lets them go.

           "Noooooo!!"  I come back to myself, realizing the real intesity of this problem.  My problem.  The problem I am freakin' out about.

           I noticed before, that the land was slanted up to my right.  Drew would hit first.  So when I take off, and leap over the cliff, I head towards Drew.  But in my heart, I cry.  Jay sees me go toward Drew and I can see the sadness in his face but can do nothing about it.  I can only hope I can make it in time.

           I grab Drew, grab a branch, throw him on it, and leap off toward Jay.  Then, I notice something.  Jay is too hurt to spread out his body to slow the decent.  He is curled up holding his side.  He is falling faster than Drew was.  My heart cracks as I "float" toward Jay, trying to get to him before he hits the ground.  I'm almost to him, his back toward me so he doesn't see me trying to reach him, when I am hit. 

           My breath leaves my lungs as I hit the ground rolling.  I lay on the ground, not able to process what has just happened.  Then I scramble up.  I can't feel my right front leg, but I run to where Jay lays.  My heart breaks when I see him on the ground in pain, unable to breath without hurting. 

            "Jay.  Jay stay with me.  C'mon Jay."  He turns his head toward me and I start sobbing at the sadness in his eyes.  The hurt.  I don't know what to say.  He talks for me.

             "You... you went for him," he chokes out.  "You love him don't you.  Tornado was right.  You did find someone else."

             I am shocked.  "Jay, no!  I love you.  I would do anything to redo that.  Jay, I thought I could make it.  I don't know what happened.  Jay...." my voice trails off as I see tears go down his face.  He's crying. 

             "Emathyst, I loved you.  You love Drew.  I'm not going to make it, so what does it matter?" he says.  I could almost see his broken heart.  He's starting to fade.

             "No! Jay no!  Don't leave me!"  His head collapses.  Then I hear a voice.

             "I told you there was no way to save them both."  Then it hits me.  Again.  Tornado saw that I was going to save both of them, so he stopped me.  It was his fault.

             "It's your fault," I scream at him.  "You killed him!!"

             "I didn't kill him.  You went after Drew first.  I told you you had to choose."

             I leap.  I still can't feel my right front leg, I don't know what happened.  I just know that he killed Jay.  That's all I need.  I pull my anger up from my heart and use it on Abyss.  Rage and hatred against him make up for my lost leg.  I keep attacking.  Then he's on the ground in front of me, covered in blood and claw marks that will not soon heal.  I see horror in his eyes.

             Then I see why.  I see my reflection in his scared eyes.  My eyes have turned blood red.  I would have scared myself if I wasn't so mad.  That's it.  It was the anger.  I was so consumed in my anger, I became someone else.  A killer.  A savage.  But right then, I didn't care.

             "Okay, you win," he says out of breath.  

             "I'm not letting you go.  You deserve to die."  I stare down at Abyss, cowering in front of me.  The only way I could have beat him is because of the heartache that fueled my anger.

             He looks up at me.  He knows he's done.  He lays on the ground, not even attempting to get up.  I tear open his throat with the last of my energy.  Then I turn around to Jay and I start to cry again.  Drew is by his side, holding him.  He sees me and sets Jay down.  Now I know he's gone.

Ch. 8

             I run to them trying to get to Jay and Drew throws his arms around me.  I bawl my eyes out.  Drew rocks me back and forth shushing me and trying his best to comfort me.  It doesn't work very well.  I just keep crying.  I keep trying to get to Jay, but Drew keeps me away.

              Drew pushes me back and looks me over.  "Are you okay?" he asks me.  "Are you hurt?"

              "Let me get to him!"  I try to push through him to get to Jay.

              "I need to check you out first.  Are you okay?" he asks again.

               "I can't feel my right arm but what does it matter," I say through sobs.    

              He feels my shoulder then puts one paw on my shoulder, and one on my arm.  "When I count to three, i'm going to push it back into place.  Ready?  One, two,...three."  He pushes and I hear a pop. 

               Pain shoots up my arm and I yell.  Loud.  I clench my teeth, and move my arm around.  It still hurts, but I still get up and go to Jay.  He's laying on the ground.  Still.  Never to move again.  Tears come to my eyes again. 

               He can't be gone.  He's not gone.  He just can't be. I say to myself trying to will him alive.  I lay my head on his side.  No heartbeat.  Nothing.  That's when my head cicks in.  It butts out my heart.  He's gone, and it wasn't Abyss' fault.  It was mine.  It was all my fault.

               New hot tears spring to my eyes as I turn around to Drew.  "I can't stay here anymore.  I can't go home either.  I'm leaving.  Go home and tell them I failed.  Tell them he's dead so so am I.  And it's all my fault."  I turn around and head away.  Anywhere but here.

               "Wait, why are you leaving?"  He runs up behind me.  "No.  It's not your fault.  Abyss killed him.  Not you."

               "No.  I killed him.  He thinks I love you!  He thinks that it doesn't matter to me that he's dead!"