I remember more then anyone what my Regret is, in fact it’s what my other side of me is called, the one who is an alpha of all, by the words and teachings of the spirits despite this then how’d did, how did it happen…to me…Despite how hard you try no matter how blessed you are, it doesn’t change anything in the end your just a passing thing…your life.

I Cember born of the star of abomination, born under the bad day of the week the 13-day in our 13-day week. Under the 13 month of the world, which I know, is different from the world’s view of things. Being a greatest abomination to this world from what I know, having the life of Cember and Regret as one being but acting as one. Regret is the one said to cast the frozen lands of the north and the ones not I have south seen deeply, which
I think not to be true having him with me at all times since my mother and father created me. I was never meant to be but I am, I lost everything but I didn’t. I kept my pack but…to me I have lost everything…why did I lose everything, expect the hate or in other words the screwed up side of me. Why do I have still Regret inside, he is I.

“Cember! Cember!” A black or BC called a white wolf pup, to grab his short attention span. The pup started yipping around to his mother, he was excited to see his mother. “All right, calm down, you only see me everyday, for hours, hours and hours.” The pup tilted his head as confused. “Ah your just a cute little guy aren’t you, very gentle, and small, smaller then you should be…” The pup whimpered, the mother sighed, “And that’s why you’re mine, you’re so special, you know that don’t you?” The pup yipped several times in response, “And you still can’t talk can you?” The pup whimpered several times, the last one she could tell was an annoyed one. The mother shook her head and licked the pup few times cheering him up. The pup licked her back a few times. “Now get out here you.” The pup licked her face and mussel before running off wondering and sniffing things. “Why Cember?” The black wolf slowly spoke, “You never did anything…your just unlucky. But it’s just unfair…so unfair, your very beautiful and being called an abomination. Just isn’t fair.” Black wolf was near tears, She hated how they only she called him Cember, everyone else just abomination, as if was his name it wasn’t but being born under all the bad omen signs was called only that, ‘abomination.’ The black she wolf sighed. “You’re so small Cember, you’re five months and don’t know how to speak, you seem to know everything around you just not how to speak it, or grow, you still look eight weeks old.”

“Hey vain!” the black wolf looked behind her and just made a little laugh as a welcome the wolf. “What are talking to yourself about, it’s not smart to do that, it drives you crazy.”

The black wolf scoffed “Crazy? Crazy? Crazy?! How about only your only takes care of your own and his so called father well he isn’t really in Cember’s life, and even you call him, ‘Abomination.’ I tired of it his name is Cember! And everyone calling my pup an Abomination is something I can’t take, not once not twice but never.” Black wolf sighed, “How would you handle that?”

The gray wolf next to her sighed, “I don’t know, I guess I’d drown or smother him I guess.”

The black wolf looked at her in disbelief, “Would you really though kill your own, what you brought to the world kill your motherhood, kill your pup that you brought here?”

The gray wolf shook her head, “No I couldn’t, I couldn’t do that to my own, I couldn’t, I just couldn’t do it. I’m so sorry Vain.”

Vain sighed, “It’s ok, I’m sorry I just can’t take it anymore, I want my son to live and everything, but it’s funny, his birth was under the star of the Abomination was right over him, on the 13th day on the 13th month, on the 13th of Abomination year, and just for that he suffers.”
The wolf next to her, “But it’s under all the bad omens and the days and years and time is just too perfect to be normal.”

Vain snapped at her, “What do YOU know about it?” Vain shot out again before she could answer, “NOTHING!”

“Vain calm down, I don’t mean to evil like at all, but Abomination, has to be an abomination, he following the pattern…he still small which is not normal in any case, but his signs, are just too.”

Vain interrupted her, “Well, he is small, HE is not an Abomination and you’re no friend of mine if you think that, GO away!” The gray wolf paused and then left Vain alone. Vain looked at her pup, “Why you Cember?”

A butterfly landed on Cember noise he stared at it for a moment then it flew off, he started chasing it. Vain watched Cember with a smile, “Such a cute lad.” Vain smiled. She looked around, looking for in mind a wolf, a white one, his father, Kiltin. “Where is he?” the she-wolf asked her self. “Most likely out doing something, I know he thinks I’m over protective about Cember, not even he calls him Cember, why?” Vain felt alone, no one, even her mate; his father called him abomination. She became lost in the thought as tear rolled down her cheek.

She heard a whimper from below, she looked down, Cember was looking at her, more of the her tear, she smiled, “It’s ok mommy just has something in her in eye.” Vain used her paw to wipe the tear away, “See as good as ever.” She said with a smile to her son.
The pup whimpered and crawled next to her chest, as if trying to comfort her, Vain did her best not to cry, “It’s ok, and mommy is fine, just fine.” The pup whimpered, as if not believing it. The pup rested his head on her leg as he lay down, the white pup whimpered. Vain genteelly rested her head on his small body. With being his mother she could tell that, that Cember was tired, he seemed comforted by his mother resting her head on him, as she was.

Vain watched her Cember slowly fade into his sleep, just sleep and don’t worry about anything, I’m here. Vain went to her resting state, where she was both asleep and awake, getting like sleep but ready to bolt and do anything at less then a moments notice. But she hadn’t slept in a long time, in due time fell asleep.

A white wolf nudged Vain, Vain shot up in a panic that she fell asleep she instantly looked down, she gave a huge sigh, seeing Cember still sleeping on her leg. She finally turned her head to the white wolf, “You scared me.” Her heart was pounding in her chest.

The white wolf laughed, “Hey Vain, it’s about time you actually slept, I haven’t seen you sleep in a week, you need to sleep. I’m getting worried about you, too much of that will kill you. I don’t want to lose you.”

Vain slightly tilted her head at him, in deep in thought, as if wondering to tell him something she wanting to say for while but couldn’t say it, The white wolf Kiltin gave a sigh, “Your getting sick, it will kill you, I’m getting to the point if this goes on I’ll lose you, you’re everything to me Vain.”

Vain had some tears on her face; it surprised Kiltin, “Alright here’s the news flash, you are losing me, you’re losing me forever.” Vain turned away in more tears. “That’s the truth.”

The words stuck his soul like a spear, “What, what do you mean? Vain…what do you mean? I’ll change name it!” He asked in starting his own tears, he started breathing heavily.

She looked away, “Here’s the truth, since Cember was born, you weren’t there, I had to name him, and…never…never once you called him by his name, just ‘abomination’, just that and…I can’t take it. I can’t take it! You calling your own son that! Abomination?! How can you be his father? How can you be my mate? How? Please tell me how?” she was in tears rolling down her face, it was more like sobbing, “I don’t think love you anymore. I don’t…”

Kiltin took a breath it was all to fast for him, he took a few breaths before he could speak, “I’ll change Vain, I’ll Change, I’ll call him his name, please I…I can’t lose you…I’ll change…” He sobbed to her, “I’ll change I promise! …I promise,”

She shook her head with tears, “You can’t, I’ve heard what you say about my Cember. I can’t let you…I won’t, you can’t be with me, your not his father, Kiltin your not in my life anymore…”

“’My Cember?’ He is our Cember. Vain…” He couldn’t take it, “I’ll do anything Vain, ANYTHING!” He begged to her, “I’ll do anything…”

“The pack poisoned you against me, I can’t trust you who know you might just.” Vain couldn’t finish, she was trying to say you just might kill him, when she isn’t around, or put him in a place to be killed by some sort of way or another kill Cember is what she was saying, “I can’t trust you. I don’t love you.”

Kiltin buried face with his paws as he sat down, “Please…Vain, please…Just please…” She looked away not being able to bare the sight of him in so much pain. “Vain…” he softly continued.

She finally got herself to say it, “Your not my love anymore…go home.” Doing her best to not go to sob, “Go home…”

Kiltin slowly started to back away, “Vain, please, Vain…” He took a step forward trying to give her nudge under her neck; Vain moved her head so he couldn’t. “Vain…”

“Go home…” she said in many tears fighting her own decision, “Go home…” She fought herself to not bury herself in his fur, like when she trusted him.

“Vain, honey you’re my home...with out you I have no home, I never will without you Vain, love…” Kiltin sobbed, “Vain please…” he begged.

“Good bye…Kiltin.” She sobbed; she still loved him very much, but just couldn’t trust him anymore. Kiltin slowly started to walk away, barely having the strength to walk after what he been told by his