Suar –Balto’s Half-sister

“My Family”

Suar: Oh come on mother! Let me see it! Sometimes I hate my life. It was perfect, before that dog appeared in my life! Why did my mother even choose him?! What was wrong with my dad? You know mother, your choice basically has spoiled my life. That huskey hates me, but he just hides his hatred! You should just see the way he looks at me, the way he talks to me! Urrg! You know what? I think he is evil. Did you think about that too? I am sure you didn’t, because you love him, don’t you? You told it to me every time I asked you to leave him. I don’t believe in love between a wolf and a huskey! Don’t you see that you two are completely different creatures! Of course you don’t! So I have to suffer - because of your blindness!

Every night I think about my dad. Who was he? How did he look like? I reckon he was as ginger as I am. By the way daddy, if you can read my thoughts, you must know that everyone calls me a fox because of my color. Thanks for that. Ok, can you see now, how miserable my life is? And that’s not it!

Mother, I know that your life was perfect. You have a reputation of being a miracle wolf. Is it true, that you saved all those wolf packs? As long as I know, they were short of food and you led them to Alaska. I would never leave my home, even if it would be a question of life and death! By the way, how was it like in Canada? Was it cold there, or was it hot? You never talked about it! I am wondering why! There are a lot of things I don’t know about you. Do you think that if you will tell me something about your life, I will tell it to everyone?!?!?! No, that’s just ridiculous! Of course you trust me! Sorry mother - that was just my stupid fantasy.

Enough about you! I know, that you will never read my thoughts! You were never a mind-reader! So now about me! Right now, I am sitting in front of our cave. I lived in this cave all my life, even when dad lived with me! But let me continue. I am not aloud inside, because you just gave birth. The puppy is from that huskey. I hate it already. Because of it I have to stay in the cold, all by myself.

I am not even glad about its birth. To be honest, I always wanted to have a brother or a sister, a younger sibling. I would boss him or her around and I would be a good big sister. But tuff, I am the only cub in my family. How pathetic. So now my wish came real, but now the way I wanted it to be. I had never wanted to have a sibling, whose father is a dog. But now I have one. I just can’t imagine how ugly my new sibling will be. It makes me laugh. Yeah!

“Suar darling, you can come in now!”

So there is mother – the white wolf. I can’t believe that I can come in now. Yeppie! No more standing by myself in the darkness! Mother, are you sure, you would like me to see that newborn?! Ok, I am coming, just give me a sec!

Now I am inside the cave. It is very warm in here comparing to the outside. So where is the newborn? Wait, I think I can smell it. Here we go!

“Who said, you can come in?” And who said you can be so rude to me, eh? That was my step-dad - as grumpy as always. He is so rude to me! Mother, let me just make a huge scratch across his ugly face! Please – I am so tempted to do it!

“It’s ok, darling! I think she can see them now! Come in, Suar!” Did you hear that? My mother calls that huskey “darling”. And “them”! I thought there is only one cub! That makes everything worse. Also mother, you have just witnessed him being rude to me. And you don’t even want to se it! You are blinded by a stupid love. If anyone will ask me, what has spoiled my life, I will say love!

Oh no! I didn’t expect that! THREE PUPPIES! Take me out of this nightmare, someone! But wait a sec; two of them look just like wolves. That is not too bad. And yeah, I swear the third one is a pure doggy – the unlucky one! I will teeth that doggy for not being a wolf. Maybe I am nasty, but I don’t care because he is the one of the creatures, who have spoiled my life.

“Oh Suar, did I tell you their names?” mother said from behind. “The black one is called Sovein, the white one is called Grosty, and the grey one is called Balto.” What a stupid name – Grosty. I am definitely gonna call him Gross Tea. That’s more like him.

So what’s about Sovein? Probably this name will become So Vain. That’s just like him. He was born in vain. Yah and he’s so vain. What shall I do with the name Balto? Maybe I should leave it, because he is a dog already.

Four weeks later…

Suar: I am so terrified of coming back to my cave. Mother, please, tell me what happened last night. Why you and the huskey had a huge argument last night. He was basically roaring at you! Can you be honest just once in your life! I tried to ask you that this morning, but you said something strange. I understood that you simply don’t want to talk about it. I still can hear his voice in my head – “Why didn’t you let me know, that one of your wolves killed a man in Nome! And you let her do it!! You know what? Now I want to kill you just as she killed that man! You wolves are cruel and aggressive creatures!” And then came the shocking phrase! “Look at your daughter! She is a good example! She harasses my puppies. I am the loving father who cares about my puppies, and you just blank them, because you love your foxy child!!!” Other way round you creep! You have never cared about my mother, and the only one you actually love is Balto.

I hate this name. It is used as a poison in my life. He looks like a dog, so there you go! He gained his father’s love. Wow! Oh, no! He also made my life miserable. Why? Because he made me and you, mother, more apart. You always give him extra attention. Your excuse – “Sorry Suar, but he is a dog! And it is very hard for a dog to survive among wolves!” I see that! Why don’t you just kill him?! That will make your life and my life much easier. But you are too kind, mother! I really want you and me just to run away from everyone! My life would be much better.

So now I am on the way home. Wait! I can smell an unusual smell. It smells with a human. I hope, my mother is fine. See, mother - I care about you, so please start carrying about me. Oh no – it also smells with the fresh blood. Someone is injured. I hope Balto is the one who is injured or probably dead. Now I am entering the cave.

Someone, save me! No, no, no! I must be asleep and this is just a simple nightmare. All right, Suar, wake up! Now! Quickly! I can’t see that anymore. But I can’t wake up! That’s because…because…coz…I AM AWAKE!!! Mother, prove that you are still breathing. I see that red hole in your head. Crimson liquid is coming out of it. That liquid is blood! I cam smell it! Mother, you are so…so…lifeless. You can’t be dead. Not in my life. Now I will open my eyes. You will lick my head with your soft tongue. I will see your face and the sunlight will feel the cave.

The only problem is that I am awake!!! I am bloody awake!!! The only creature, which cared about me a tiny beet, is dead. Gross Tea and So Vain are also dead. I will call them by their real names – Grosty and Sovein. Oh Grosty, even though your name is immature, I still loved you in a way. And Sovein – you were just like a wolf. You really looked like our mother did, like I wanted to look always. Sovein, you howled like a wolf, and so did Grosty. Mother, brothers, I will always miss you, always!!!

You know what is the worst thing? Balto is alive!! His weak body is lying next to mother’s body. He is crying and I will kill him, I will break his spine, I will break his neck, I will snap his thin bones! He is so helpless, so pathetic, and so ugly, so like a dog.

I better call the goose Boris. He is our family friend. He helped my mother to look after Balto and Sovein and Grosty. He will help me, he will understand me. He will help me to take the revenge on Balto, because I am sure that he hates Balto too…

PS:

• Suar, are you sure, that your step-father killed your family!

• Yep, Boris. He had a massive argument with my mother yesterday and he said that he wants to kill her.

• Ok, now calm down!

• HOW CAN I CALM DOWN WHEN MY FAMILY IS DEAD! I am going to kill Balto right now.

• Don’t! He is innocent. He didn’t mean to ruin your life. Suar, you must learn to forgive. Balto is the only one you have now.

• Well, I would rather have no one than have a dog in my family.

• Suar, I understand you, but…

• NO, YOU DON’T! DID YOUR LIFE WAS SPOILED, WAS YOUR FAMILY MURDERED!?!?!?!?!?!NO, NONE OF THIS HAD HAPPENED TO YOU!!!

• Oh Suar. Please, leave Balto. I love him so much!

• You do?

• Of course! He was like my son, like maybe my nephew.

• And I was like no one to you!

• Suar and you were like my daughter. The thing is, you didn’t need an extra care, you see.

• How do you know?! I was suffering all my life because of that huskey! Oh how much I needed love, how much I needed care!

• The best thing for you to do now is to leave! To run away from here?

• Why?

• In case if that huskey wants to kill you to! You mustn’t die! Once, Aniu told me, that she will do everything to protect you! You may not believe me, but you were her favorite! She loved you so much, Suar. Now I am trying to protect you for your mother’s sake!

• Well, I am still going to kill Balto.

• Suar, wait!!! Come back!