tastes actually, i bet it did not taste like anything, i don't know how i somehow know it, a lot of images begun to pass in front of my eyes, i begun to somehow move with no control, i begun to be afraid, i got nervous, my heart beaten faster, my breathing as hard and i felt like the air was cut off, lik if i needed to breathe a cuantity of air and i was allowed just to breathe part of it, so i begun to get nervous and breathe harder and harder until i even felt dizzy, then i recovered part of my mind, somehoe i got to stop moving, but i couldn't stop shaking or allowing me o breathe, i felt colder, and then suddenly my mind allowed me to breathe a little more each breathe i took, i felt slowly how my mind was coming back to me, making me conscient of how tired i was, when i finally could get to breathe correctly my heart begun to calm down as well... i was unable to wake up, but i finally got to recover my proper sight again, ten minutes after taking a rest of such an effort, i elevated lightly my head taking a look around, my siblings were all togethe rin a corner looking at me with weird faces, like if i was a weird creature, my father and so everyone did stared at me with somehow sad and also impressed faces, “what's wrong?, what hjave i done?” i asked, i finally got to sand up and look at my parents who were in the entrance of the garage, i felt my stomach upset, i stared my mother, then my mother stared at me his eyes were filled of tears, she turned around away geting out of the garage, and so my father did after her, “mommy? Have i done anything bad?, i asked” she jsut cried and went away with my father, i followed him through teh way, coming out of the garage and following them sightly, they got into a strange street, really small street, and opened a weird ropom which was quite warm compared to the cold of alaska, they seemed to name it boiler room., it was the place where most of the heat of alaska born, without it probabily no one would be hot in their homes, i hid after a boiler and seen what was wrong with myself, my mother was crying, hardly crying her tears rolled her face, and so my fathe rdiud anything on his paw to make her happy, but was not possible, “no, no.. this cannot be possible, where could we fail honey?!,”, asked my mother somehow histerical “Listen honey, i don't know what happened to our little puppy either, but surely the vet of the city can help him out,”, said my fatehr trying to calm her down,, “no, dear, i used to have a borther like that, last time we've been at the vet when i was a little puppy, the vet said it was a chronical disease, recesive genetic, not our fault at all.. but still.. why our son?” she asked, fill of tears and somehow desperated, “does that mean that he has no cure?”, asked my father afraid of the answer, “yes...” answered my mother,

i couldn't stay there doing nothing but hearing that my disease was cronical so the feelings inside me, incited me to run away far from teh discussion, my eyes filled of tears and the scare and despior inside me incited me to run away from the place, jumping out of the boiler room and doing m best to run in the snow efforting for nothing, i run, but why? probbaily i tried to escape unconsciently form my diseasse, something that was no possible, so i finally got back to home and came back into teh hot of my home by the pet's door installed on the main door,  i came to a dark corner thinking again of all story, i was nervous, i was bad, i could not think of anything else, but, "why me,?" "what could happen if my owners found out i'm ill?.." i asked myself many times each of these more angustied about my matter, my eyes couldn't avoid the tears anymore so they begun rolling my face down, the stress band teh scare taken the reins of my whole body, i was unable to think straight,ñ when suddenly i heard the sound of shoft, really shoft footsteps in the stage that covered the cold floor of our home i sightly turned my sight back, and there was Raphael, one of my best siblings, i loved him a lot, and so i still do, but somehow in that moment his mind seemed to change to my oppinion, toward all the subjets referred to my cronical disease.., he had my toy in his mouth, let it on the floor and poked it in my direction,  "what does this mean?" i asked him afraid of his answer "this may be your last day here," he said, my nevres crossed my whole back like a light ray crosses a sky in a stormy day, my heart begun to beat faster and my stomach becamse smaller... "One of our owners seen that thing you did before, and he thinks that your time has come, that you'd be better in a new home..." i got stucked, and my nerves somehow calmed under a inocent puppy tought which is  the idea of a "new home", without saying a word i stand staring at my sibling, "come on, grab your toy, you would miss a lot, and i still want you to remember us, our friendship, teh good moments we had together...", i came toward my toy, which was a rubber bone that sounded whenever i pressed it    and tried to come towards my sibling so i could cuddle him for such a great new, but he walked a couple of steps back, i understood so i turned my sight to the floor and sat there, he was somehow afraid and sad, "why's that? i'm going to a new home, does that mean i'll be some kid's pet, and why giving me my toy? if i'm going to a new home i would live in nome, a few steps away form here, wouldn't i?", "i guess.." he answered turning his sight to the left, i didn't really get to understand, then i seen one of our owners coming towards us, grabbed me with almost no mercy by my skin, something that hurted me quite a lot!, and took me outsaid back to teh cold of nome's mountains, i begun to cry so he understood he was hurting me while he grabbed my skin, but then something worse, he he put me in a box andpulled me into the car.. i stucked with the door, what a hurt!!, then after getting calmed, a little bit i begun to bite my toy when my mind was attacked by tons of questions, such as "what's my new owner going to be  like?", "i wonder.. would he like to play ball chasing with me?" , i thankfully got on to get up to the box's   edges and take a look through the window, nothing but darkness and also whitness of the snow, clouds and fog, bothing else, suddenly i heard a sound, like it sounded when the train was about to get to the station!, then my owner stopped suddenly the car without any kind of care getting me off my balance and  hiting me hardly with the  front seat HELL it HURTED! then grabbed my box and pulled it out hardly agains the snow, obligating me to fall off the box into a snow hole, but luckily i could get out of the prission, i looked around, nothing but snow and  the train station, no people, no dogs, nothing but that, bgut.. "what about my new home?",i asked myself " then i seen my woner going back to the carm oppening the door as fast as he could and press the accelerator, i ran out of te prission "wait!!, wait!!" i tried to say while i was running, but teh car was faster,.. i did not give up tough! so i kept runing and riunning each time faster and faster, even getting over to my own records, and asking my owner "where is my new home?!" i asked in vain, i never got any answer but at leas triong to follow him i got on come back to nome,  but i lost his clue in the way and could not back to home, which is better, since during the way i realised he didn't want me near him anymore, so there i was., sad desperated, slow, walking through nome streets with no course to walk in, three horus latter i got on find a new metal bar, empty and really big, but heh surprise when i came into them they were pretty wet so i slept the whole winter night in a pretty dirty poodle,

Rejection in their eyes

i woke up with my throat irritated it hurted a lot, the hits my owner gave me the day before were still hurting and i was really cold oand dirty, i came out of the tube so i could try to find a little of food to have as breakfastthen i heard a sound at my back, it was getting closer to me, it was the sound of the machine of some light vehicles..  well okay it was a motorbycke but in that moment i didn't know its name, i got out of the road and seen it spreaded a tasty smell, like food, it was quite familiar! then i took a look at the back of the motorbycke, there was a plain box in it, some box i could swear i saw my owners eat something tasty from it, so i begun to run after it and wow miracle, hungry can make you do anything! i made my own theory about that, since i was getting closer to the motorbyke, but prooved it myself that it was not true when i got into another puddle getting even more dirty, cold and watching the motorbycke escaping form me, gerat, what to do now? i tought, well i might walk on teh streets maybe there is a trash bin near.. so i begun to walk alone in the streets in quest of a bin when i walked forward a restaurant, and EUREKA! its bin was pretty close and even better i could see someone getting out form the restaurant and leaving rests of eatable food! oh godness" today i'm  not doing it that bad!" i begun to bark at the chief so he gave me the trash  instead of puting it on the bin, 

and guess what? i begun wagging my tail barking like a good puppy and know what?! he did come to me and caressed me!! he played with me, and asked me many times "who is a good boy?!" i was really happy in theat moment, i probabily