don't think I'll find out. I think we need to go to bed, hopefully we can get this out of our heads." I said... But I can't.

  The kids went to sleep, Aleu and I were staring at them.

  "I can't do that, I'm really getting sick of this, can my life get any worse, anything that's good that comes, is a price, slowly I'll lose it or I'll pay dearly." I walked out, whispering.

  "You need to relax, you really get to tense way to much." Aleu said. Her head on my back.

  "The reason is why... Why me.. WHY ****IN ME!" I screamed under my paw so I don't wake up the kids.

   "Why can I have anything good, without it killing anyone, or hurting myself during the process. Let me guess, soon enough you'll go away since I'm slowly become a psychopath, I can see that happening, really quick." I cried in my own arms.

  "I ain't going to leave you. You ain't insane. Your really stressed. That's all." Aleu said laying beside me, her head to my head.

  "That how the insane comes from, stress, anger, their own misery. It's in my genes, my murderess parents, had to give birth, just had to choice one to torture, the rest, harmony." I was putting my head on the ground, away from her head.

  "Don't give up, have faith, you'll see peace, you just have to look for it." Aleu said.

  "I've found the place, but they want me away. Also don't bring your stupid spirits on me. It seems totally out of logic. And If they really cared about me, maybe they should have never gave me a life, you hear that spirits, **** YOU, YOU GIVE NO **** ABOUT THIS WORLD, IF YOUR THERE, YOU SHOULD HAVE EVERYONE LIVING HAPPILY, AND NOT ANY CHOICE ON WHO TO GIVE HELL ON!" I said looking up, wishing I could just take my anger on them, make me the leader, make sure everything is a problem in this world, to keep tragedy away from this world.

  "I think I have an idea to get you calm. Come back in if you want." Aleu walked away.

  I got way carried away on this, Aleu Probably thinks I slowly going from the one she loves. But she knows I don't care about illogical things. I insulted her. I walked back inside. I laid beside her.

  "I'm sorry, I insulted you back there. I can't lose you too." I whisper in her ear.

 
  "You don't need to, I think I'll be doubting them if I was in your shoes. I love you. Please forget about this. I don't want this becoming a fight. We won't lose each other." Aleu turn around looking at me. Nuzzling me. We went to sleep quickly, in each others arms.

  The next day...