sister but she doesn't eat it.I run up to her and put my paw to her head, she is searing. burning up, like a forest fire. i whimper and put my paw down. all happiness is gone. then i lie down next to Cailley but jump to my paws at once. now she is freezing cold! what is happening?!?

then all of a sudden dad started crying. i cryed too. he picked me up and but me down on his back and picked up Cailley and held her in his mouth gently. we ran and ran and ran. farther and farther away from home. then dad stopped when we came to a small but calm grassy meadow with one lone willow tree in the middle of it. he trotted to the tree and lied Cailley down. he wept and as did i. but why? was she dead? was she still ill? then i asked my father, "did she die?"

he doesn't say anything, all he does is nod and weep.

our life has been full of lose. mother, Cailley. my heart is gone. my soul has left with it. i haven't got the will to live. me and dad have lost hope, there is nothing left for us anymore. where shall we go? we don't know, but were never looking back. were finally free from that offal place where death was normal. death should never be something normal, that you see everyday. but ever since a new alpha came to power things have never been the same.

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my father and i travel farther and farther away from the den. to try and find a new place to call home. we both sadly moap along the trails, wandering around as if there's nothing to live for anymore.

by now i am one. almost fully grown with talents of an adult wolf. i can hunt very well, i have ears that can hear things very far away and i can see and smell really well too. but i don't brag.

father and i were walking past a small pack when he turned and said to me, "Brooke, i have lost sight of who i am. i wish to find out who i am, just as my friend Alue has done. i will be gone for a long time but one day i will be back with new hope."

"can't i come with you dad?"

"no, your place is here. to find a pack and find a mate and have pups and live life like a wolf."

"but dad-"

"i'm sorry Brooke, but remember i will always love you."

"love you too dad."

"now you walk into that pack and ask to join."

"OK."

"good. love ya, bye."

"bye."

and with that off he went. into the woods and out of sight. i wept and walked up to the boundry lines of the pack. i swipped at my tears and walked in with my tail down and my ears flat against my head. the wolves stopped what they were doing and circled me. the growled and snarled and said, "are you a threat?"

"no." i lie down and rolled over on my back, i said i was no threat to them and i wouldn't hurt them.

"then what do you want?"

i stood up and then said, "i wish to join your pack."

"what are your talents?"

"i can hear, see, smell, run, and hunt very good."

"wonderful. and how old are you?"

"one and a half."

"OK you are now are newest gemma."

"thank you so much."

"no problem." the alpha said

finally something good has happened, i have a family, a pack, a place to call home. my new pack is called the Twilight Falls Pack. my new female alpha is Cherokee, and my new male alpha is Dingo. everything is perfect, nothing could be better. i still buiry my past deep down in side me and try to forget, but it so hard to. how can you? how can you possibley forget something as tragic as what has happened to me? you can't. all you can do is hope that things get better and look towards the future, for it's all i have left...

end of part one...

part two coming soon.