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| Member since : | 15 July 2007 | |
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| Country : | Usa | |
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*looks up at where it says "A few lines to introduce yourself:" and laughs.* Ha! Like I'm gonna be a retard and use more than a couple lines..
I love you Ana & Lindsay! <333 I miss you lindsay. So there is a lot you should know about me..but first things first...Im different. Veru d ![]()
ifferent. I have so many sides. The things I like include: Arizona tea, , (censored) braceletes, fingerless gloves (perferably w/ stripes) band shirts, musikk, headbands, belts, converse, hot topic, checkered anything, anything with stripes, mai pillow ;), winnie the pooh, hello kitty, pon and zi, emo boys, skinny jeans!!, gays, itunes, my ipod, my lap top, my hats, pins, writing on my hands and wrists ![]()
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I am a victim of anorexia. And I have tried talking about it and for those of you trying to get to me, please stop...this is one message conversation I was having a while ago and this is what I said to describe myself. I'm sorry for those of you who don't want to hear this. .lena. Dont fucking bother to talk to me...I wont answer. says: I'm really sorry I ever did that. I mean it. That was mean of me. I am jist going through a lot and sometimes i wonder if I should even get out of bed,and for some reason I do. And it's because I think that maybe that day is when something will happen. Something good. I don't know why I even try....I;ve given up hope but I guess I still get up trying to tell myself your alright. you just need to get through one more day...you can do it. I think thats what I tell myself over and over, again and again. Trying to get through everyday starving, trying to hard just to make things right. I stopped eating for two reasons, I was depressed and foor just made it worse and mostly because I wanted something to be right. Just one simple small thing. So I thought if I was really thin, then I'd be okay. I'd be like the people I see around. the ones that look like they have good lives. I just needed to stop eating....and then you become addicted and cant stop. thinking it isnt good enough. like you just need a couple more days and then you'll be fine and smiling at your reflection maybe just once.. .lena. Dont fucking bother to talk to me...I wont answer. says: but a couple days turns in months...and possibly years, until your dead.... .lena. Dont fucking bother to talk to me...I wont answer. says: and yet i still do it.....*sighs and hugs knees.*
A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle. If you would do the same for the person you love, copy this in your profile
My friend wrote this for me one day && I am proud to share this with you. hate it or love it.
She has known such great pain; haunted dreams as a child, the near-constant presence of evil ever since. She has felt the touch of awful naked men, battled depression and addiction, and attempted suicide. Her arms remember razor blades, fifty scars that speak of self-inflicted wounds. Everyone is asleep. The sun is rising. She drinks long from a bottle of liquor, takes a razor blade from the table and locks herself in the bathroom. She cuts herself, using the blade to write "F*CK UP" large across her left forearm. When I meet her, cocaine is fresh in her system. She hasn't slept in 36 hours and she won't for another 24. It is a familiar blur of coke, pot, pills and alcohol. There is more that is written but that is to personal...that was just something for everyone to know how much of a f*ck up I actually am...you probably want to close this profile now knowing it belongs to someone so awful and sick. I don't mind. How can I? What can I do? So go ahead..close it....I dare you...
Sweeney Todd rules my world. Best movie ever. Hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns hate clowns These are poems I wrote in my spare time.
Have You Ever
Have you ever, Looked in those eyes, Seen the smile that I have seen? Seen that face shining at me?
I swear it would take your breath away, You wish that moment could stay? Held like a locket in your hands, But it slips through like grains of sand,
Only a memory now, Forgotten by everyone, Just yourself alone, Who remembers those precious moments,
You look at him now, You see him smile, But not at you? You look at her face, Then she whispers in your ear, As he walks away, ?Don?t you love those moments when they look at you??
You don?t say anything, For you cannot speak, But in your mind you think,
?I can only remember them slipping away??
Naturally?I love you
Naturally.. I have a crush for you at the start, Naturally?I pretend to absolutely hate you even though we barely know each other, Naturally?I grow more and more in love with you, So naturally?.I hate you more and more, Naturally?.I repeat this process everyday, Naturally?I think I?m insane eventually, Naturally?.I give up and just love you, Naturally?I love you.
On that starry, beautiful night, Under the willow tree, In the back of your truck, Staring up at the stars, Counting the moments away, Staring into your eyes, My god they shined brighter than the stars, Then you leaned over and kissed me, So gently and sweet, Almost brought me to tears that night, When we had to say good-bye, But that moment you kissed me, I will never forget, The coldness of the night left me for good, My breathe was taken away, Along with my heart, I was dazed after wards, And couldn?t stop smiling, What was wrong with me? I felt like a child again, Swept away into your strong protective arms, I was your diamond you told me, As you stroked my hair, I was still frozen, Just giggling at your silly words, That night I will never forget, And neither will you, For we still talk about it, To this day, And I see you smiling, When I bring it up, You nod your head without words, As if trying to keep our love secret to the world, To precious to tell
NEW POEM...
To Die or To Suffer.
She sat there, Her eyes were in a deep gaze, As she thought deeply of what life could have been, They told her she had a chance to have a good life, They told her to keep trying, don?t give up!, But she shook her head, in regret, of what they had thought, Having tried once before, But failed and what not, She had tried so many times, to many to count, And those countless times, left her filled with self doubt, She had gotten back up, kept trying again, but each time she did she fell harder again, She kept falling and falling till the wounds were to much, She couldn?t take it, she did not get up, She ignored the people trying to help, She just wanted to lie there, to weak for help, She was done, did not care anymore, She just wanted to die, forgotten all in one, They eventually went away, the ones who gave help, Don?t get me wrong, she loved them with care, But the wounds and the scars got the best of her there, She lay there motionless, to weak to cry help, But what would help do? Make her scared once again, She just wanted to die, there just was no end, To the pain and the blood that filled her thoughts, To the scars and the wounds that left her to rot, They were frustrated, they were sad, the ones who had tried, She wanted to tell them, but she cried and cried, She just wanted to say, she would be okay, To help her put them out of their dismay, She knew it was a lie, that was the thought, She wasn?t okay, Not well at the most, What was she to do? She thought as they suffered, She wanted it to stop, she wanted it over, But those thoughts drifted away, As so did they, When she realized there was no hope, She was lost and a goner, She was trapped, if you may, She wanted to die? It was her only way?
My new myspace--> http://www.myspace.com/xxwhy_do_you_carexx
And now some randomness!
F*cked Up Emo Girl Loves You. My Character Sheet For RPing. (why the h*ll is this writing here so big all of a sudden? o_O) Landon-Is a girl. Is considered emo but doesn't like to be called the word "emo". Is very self concious about herself and even though she is beautiful, and has beautiful eyes she doesn't like the attention so tries to hide them and doesn't consider herself beautiful even though she is. Kai-Is a girl. Is emo and doesn't honestly care what people think. Shes a skater and hangs out with mostly boys and thinks she doesn't fit in with girls even though she does have very few girl-friends. Shes very fun loving and loves to show off. She is also very beautiful but doesn't really show that off as much as she does skate boarding tricks. A lot of her guy friends like her along with most of the boys but she sometimes doesn't notice and when she does just laughs it off and rolls her eyes. Charlotte (Charlie)- Is a girl. Hates her name so always introduces herself at Charlie and tries to hide the fact that Charlotte is her real name. Shes emo and not afraid to admit it but what most people who don't know her just yet tend to be surprised when the meet her to find she is deffinately not your average "emo". She's cool, calm, and collected for most of the time and can be shy sometimes but when she gets mad, she really gets mad. She has mostly guy friends but is liked all around by mostly everyone at her school. But she always has the same friends, the guys. They've always been the ones who are there for her. She's more like them than anything else. The real Charlie, tends to come as a surprise to most people. Even sometimes-to her closest friends. Ada- Is a girl and is emo. Ada's life is very complicated and is just a maze filled with problems from police to drugs to school and beyond. She doesn't have many friends at all, practically none, and her closest friend had passed away the year before. She has very many problems and doesn't like to consult with people much. She's very quiet and for a good reason. And when she does talk, she is either mad or depressed. So she tends to try and be silent. The last time she could remember being happy or even just "normal" was when she had her friend. I have many many many other characters I might use. Around 72 others. But those are the main I might use. ;]
I want to give a special thanks to DH (DarkCoyote) she is truely the best friend anyone could have. I know she is always there for me and I am so sorry I never noticed this before. I am glad to know now that at least one person cares about me out there and I just want her to know how greatful I am of that. She will always have a place in my hear and I will always come to her if I need help. what other choice do I have? I love you sis.
The End...
Okay, okay...so I lied. I used more than a couple lines. What's the big deal to you? You had to sit here and read all of it! Haha! I just waisted probably 10 or 15 minutes of your life! Have a nice day! =] |
| Member since : | 15 July 2007 | |
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| Country : | Usa | |
| Gender : | Female | |